I find myself looking for something real from someone else but I still haven’t been real with myself yet….. Everything looks good on camera but when the film stops running I steal have to.deal with my reality….. I have many great qualities but there’s so many other things I have to work on before I. Could even imagine giving someone all of me…. So I’m starting my soul searching journey…. A journey to figure who I am as a person…. I want to read and see the world ! And enjoy my life without needing someone…. And when I start treating myself as a queen I know my King will come
New Me
I can see myself slowly turning into the person I use to be….. Sabotaging everything that I worked so hard for…. I have lost 40 lbs and really cleaned my self up nicely… I’m not even close to the person I want to be and I see myself going back to my old habits… Over eating eating anything my hair nails and ect not done… The lazy person with no self control is starting to make its way back out and I have no idea how to stop it…. I can’t get use to being that girl again and I can’t let myself return to that kind of life….
